Experiment

Is it that very few people have the chance to do expeiments? But it's my luck that I can experiment, whether be it with life or with life again..... They say I should concentrate... but until I find a ground where my comfort level is the highest, how can I? Even after long, meticulous discussions and permutations and combinations, people find it hard to realize that I require time.. Time to find a foot-hold, a parking space. All the theories about patience and tolerance go for a toss. I firmly believe that only with the right amount of impatience can one progress in life. Patience means stagnation. When a certain individual becomes highly patient his stagnation level drives closer. Patience is a virtue but not when its your career you are talking about. With relationships you have to be patient, because investing into humans and investing into career are two different things. Human interaction is two way, if it's one-way then saturation level increases. Many a lives break up because of the mere fact that their lack of patience leads to inability in interaction. A hundred per cent risk factor is not advisable when it comes to relations but at a given point in time a highly volatile risk is possible with career. If I cannot jell well into a certain atmosphere can I give my hundred per cent into it? Had I been the live-life-the-way-it-is, it could have been possible. But now that I have been engineered in a different fashion..... different doesn't mean extra-ordinary, it just means different as in different from other individuals, I cannot slog in a completely suffocating atmosphere. I have taken a stand that I will never work in a place where I'll have to let go of my dreams. My dream to travel, my dream to read a lot... the joy of being with children in NGO's and teaching them that life can be fun. Certain things I will never want to give up in life.... these certain things are only a handful. Had they been huge in number I would have been judged as over demanding from life, but as they are equivalent to negligible.... I want them.